My Apology to the AliceRefrain from saying your apologies You’re not the one at fault Stop telling your promises They never are seen out Please stop your attempts Why the fuck do you care so much? No, don’t try to talk to me I can’t face it now STOP IT! I don’t want to know you love me I can’t even love myself over this. Don’t tell me you miss me Why do you miss me, I’m not worth it Go away, I can’t stand it Please, please, don’t, I don’t want to talkMy Apology to the Alice
Yet the voice inside me is suffocating It is crying out just for that Words are painful They only
The Beauty Behind the TearsSitting in my corner Alone again as time takes it's way The ticking of the clock, As it ticks my life away. Watching the room with cold eyes Deprived of all I've known I slip into my hell And cry beneath the moon. My apologies are useless. My days are like my nights The very words I speak Are lies within the week Salty tears that I barely know That slide across my cheek My moods are changing And so am I And the night has only just begun. Faltering gaze Longing for someone Wishing for something. Lost behind the tears I cry &nThe Beauty Behind the Tears
Sweet SilenceSweet silence fill the void Crushinh my voice, pushing away I've never felt so devoid Devoid of all I could say Say in my defense today Whisper, in my pain Is there anything to say. As I stand out in the rain Will my heart die in decay? As hate makes me cold Wishing I could hit replay That is waht I'm told Is this all I can believe? All that I will ever find. This is pain I conceive As I lay dying in my mindSweet Silence
A MillionA million things I wish I could say A million things I wish I could do to take this damn pain away And make things right with you.A Million
Words barbed with iron wire cutting at my throat, making me bleed Hate like infection, lust and desire On my hands and knees I plead
My blood is the wine, bitter and red As it stains the white snow Laying me down to bed This is the end of my show
Everyday
2. I have Kae and Kato, I feel better knowing that
3. grey is a lame color, wait, that doesn't have anything to do with this!
4. I hate that number
5. wonderful
6. la-de-da, here's me bored
7. I hate numbers ><
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"Not I, I won't conform to what I see in you. Not I, I won't surrender what I am."
I don't want any of them.
Because I know you don't mean them.
...
What I do want, is your forgiveness. Unworthy little me, yes. I don't know how we can patch this up, IF we can make this friendship work... but... well, I might as well give it a shot. Worse that can happen, is you just turn your back on me, and I lose a friend.
I'm sorry... truly, I am. No lies here. I'm sorry, that I made you feel like you were being left out. I'm not sorry for being friends with Sydney, no, but I hate that you felt that we were doing so... I get to see you every day, Demi. In gym, and in C.W. Sydney I only see at lunch, so yeah, we talk. Oh, gasp.
But that's no reason for you to be upset...
I can see why you would be, but, it's still not really that great of a reason.
Love you, Demi. If you can't see that, ok. Hate me. I'm... just to the point where I'm giving up. I care about you. If you want to exist in your world, beliving you're alone, keep it that way. But know, you aren't alone... I'm still here, if you ever want me.
Bye.
~ Sarah
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Sarcasm is the lowest form of wit.
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"Not I, I won't conform to what I see in you. Not I, I won't surrender what I am."
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"only the insane think pain is a messure of self worth" - Chersire Cat
"No kind of sensation is keener and more active than that of pain;
its impressions are unmistakable."
-Marquis de Sade
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